my 55th post: the finale *sigh*

alright people, i been thinkin a long time about what my last post would be.
i figured i'd just talk about whatever comes to my mind
(sorry Rissa :(
This post isnt about anything specific....just whats on my mind

MY LIST OF THE BEST(in no specific order)
1.) To somehow meet everyone in the world. Until i experience everything I can about people and meet everyone i wont be satisfied. I'll have to get over that tho cause its impossible. I love seeing a new perspective.
2.)To sit everybody i've ever met down and tell them how i really feel/felt about them. I think that is really important to me.
3.) To bring back my Uncle B. Best person i ever met. They dont make em like him anymore :)
4.) For people to stop drawing conclusions about me. I dont reject anybody because i hate being rejected so dont be scared to talk to me. Dont think im phony because im not. Dont call me a tomboy or a girly girl because im not. STOP labeling me and judging me.
5.)To meet Kanye, Kid Cudi, and Ashton Kutcher. They are all so awesome and i would love to just chill with them for a day. Now that i think about it...this falls under #1. Did u know that Ashton has webbed toes? lol seriously he does
6.)To get a chance to be heard. To be important amongst a general crowd. Not on a highschool level. More like global. I mean, i dont wanna be famous....i just wanna do a hour long interview and have it broadcasted on every tv everywhere and somehow everybody actually watch it and like it...never gonna happen but excuse me for having dreams :D lol
7.)To become a best-selling author. Im going to have my first book written by age 16 and published by 18. You all better go buy it!!
8.)To have some type of super power.
9.)To drive around the whole USA. I love riding in the car more than anything. Nothing else compares. My first car is going to be a '57 Chevy flat-bed truck lol
10.)To be happy. I mean, genuinely happy. I dont think anybody is....yet.
11.) I swear i can never stop at 10 lol. To visit a prison and talk to inmates. Not as a counselor. More like as a friend coming to see a friend. Only difference is im visiting a total stranger. I wanna kno why their where their at now. I wanna help them become better people and get out. Be a friend. Like i said i dont discrimante what-so-ever.

Wow, when i reread this....i think i sound like a crazy person lmao. Im glad to know that on that list i dont see money anywhere tho....im genuinely unmaterialistic :)...i think
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MY FAVORITE POSTS I EVER WROTE
if this is your first time reading my blog and you dont want to read alllllllll my posts....u should read the following ones (my faves)
-Thanks Willie :). <------this post was about me and my bestfriend chillaxin and talkin bout my blog...it tells y i blog i guess
-things that ruffles my fethers lol <-----this post was about shit i dont like. Its long but its good...in my opinion.
Venus Vs. Mars. <----this post is about ME!!!!!!!! I dont know why i like it so much. Its just cool to me
-Homicidal Grandparents <-----idk, i just think its funny lol

i actually set back and read all my blogs, these were the ones that stood out to me
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ok well i've come to an end.
It was nice bloggin for you all/myself.
Hopefully u learned a thing or two about me
If i ever start blogging again it will be a while from now on a totally different blogger account....i doubt that i will tho
thanks to everybody who ever read my blog.
Have a nice life folks....and i mean that in the nicest most serious way possible....no sarcasm

u can catch me on myspace tho (myspace.com/dhwbenzo23)
or facebook (my name on there is Mercedes Hall) that site isnt nearly as borin as u think....dont believe the hype

p.s. STOP KILLING EACHOTHER!!! we wont need a 2012 apocalypse if we kill eachother before then!

Love,
Mercedes B.H. :)

my 54th blog: im tired

its 10:12 and im tired as fuck!
I still have to study gor three classes, take a shower, put some stuff on this girl ipod, and ironing me and my little brother's clothes

My mama had me waste about 2 hours makin carts on zumiez, Vans, circa, hot topic, and forever 21 webites and then she wouldnt even give me her credit card!!!
I dont understand people these days...keep makin me waste all my time maaaane!!!

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my 53rd post: People i am not dumb!!!

Ok so progress reports just got mailed home like this weekend or whatever
and i had all a's
almost everybody at school who asked me what were my grades were
like shocked as hell by my answer
Y r u so surprised???
Do u really think im dumb???
freshman year isnt even hard....this shit is majority review anyway
But i dont kno y these kids think just because im goofy SOMETIMES and i get
put out of class from time to time..or day to day(wow this really is not helpin my point lol i dont get put out that much tho)
and like crack jokes that im stupid
Before i got to this school i had straight a's almost
every report card since pre-k!!

Speakin of gettin kicked out....why the hell do these teachers keepin givin me the boot???
Mercedes is not a bad kid!!!
One teacher kicked me out for spelling "fuck"
another for tellin a girl there was a bug on her back
another for talkin too much/too loud.....twice
and i think thats it but thats enough!!!
Stop Kickin me out CPS staff!!! lol

on another note...
u remember that boy i was talkin bout in my "so wassup wit me n u" post
yea him
his name is Rob
so he texts me sayin "u woke"
me:yea
Rob:I got sumthin 2 ask u even tho i aint gone ask it
me:If u not gone ask then y would u bring it up
Rob:Cause i got tired of tryna ask u in the first place
Me:o...my bad then...i guess...???
Rob:I wanted to kno if u wanted to go to homecomin wit me and jus chill
Me: imma get back 2 u on that...but if i did go could i bring a friend....or friendzzz???
Rob: If they got money. 15 at the door
Me:Alright, imma get back at u
Rob:Like i said i aint goin cause imma be bowlin with the fam
Ok thats when i stopped textin
HOW IN THE HELL R U GONE ASK ME TO GO SOMEWHERE WITH U AND THEN TURN AROUND AND SAY "LIKE I ALREADY TOLD U I AINT GOIN CAUSE IMMA BE BOWLIN???
Why would u ask me then??
I was bout to go out of my way and get Rell S. and Naomi to go to this homecomin wit us...even tho u already asked me last WEEK and i said i couldnt go!!
That conversation blew me away in every way possible

52nd post

i thought these were funny yesterday





they're not really funny anymore tho lol o well

disclaimer....this is only my 51st post!!!

i kno on my last post i said that i was on my 53rd post but i was wrong
im on my 51st
the thingy was counting my drafts too...so when i deleted all my drafts the number went back down to how it was suppose to be
im still going to stop at my 55th post tho
it wouldnt kill me to write four more posts right??
So lets see....what am i going to talk about???
o ok, i kno
So i have this friend and we're gonna call her Kenya
she's just as sweet as pie
but....
she's so defenseless!!
I mean for instance, she had a bag of chips one day and these two beggers (i do not like beggers) kept asking her for her chips
she kept tryna tell them the bag was empty but they still were
like "no u're lying, gimme some chips, pleeeeeeeeaazzzz!!!"
so she turns the bag upside down to show them its empty
They immediately go from beggin mode to treatin mode
they started callin her dirty, and ghetto and sayin that they didnt want it anyway and that was probably the only food her poor ass ate in a week
im just like "???"
U're beggin her for her LAST and she's poor??
I wasnt there when it happened but this girl told me the story in full detail...
I kno sum people call me a pushover...
but i dont think i am...nobody "pushes me over"
it is true that im pretty nice at times to people at school but its not because someone is MAKING me do it...its just second nature to me
Like if i let a girl use one of my brand new lip glosses and they say that they like it usually i tell them they can have it...yea that last time i did that the lip gloss was six dollars but i didnt pay anything for it so what do i care (and no i didnt steal it lol)
im not a pushover for that...they didnt even ask for it...i just felt like giving to them...i feel like if you're nice to me why not be nice to you
and if you are honestly my friend i will do everything in my power to help u get what u want and if i have something u want and it doesnt hold much signifigance(sp) to me then why not give it to u...i dont even like lip gloss that much
Imma CHERRY CARMAX GIRL lol
its not a loss to me so whatever...im not passin out fuckin kidneys and if i do like u, i can guarentee you're not gettin shit from me
Im not that materialistic at all tho...my parents are...so when they buy me something i dont want why not give it to a friend who does??
I would like to think my friends would do the same for me
Or say if someone comes up to me and a group of friends and ask for a dollar everybody will say no but i'll call that person back over there and give them a dollar..
thats not being a pushover to me cause it was strictly by my choice..
i just like doin shit for people sometimes
and its not like people dont do nice things for me almost everyday
Nobody at school or in the streets really ever fucks with me so i have no reason to put up a defense
if someone comes at me foul i kno how to handle myself
imma have to talk with "Kenya" tho because i dont like the way she's lettin people treat her
She doesnt deserve that shit

...i mean im jus sayin

Jammin out to places to go by fiddy (50 cent)

I dont know why i named this blog that...my little bro has been singin that old ass song so its stuck in my head now
but....on to the point
You kno what im kinda tired of doing??
blogging
i've been doin it for like half a year now (or something like that) and i think im done...
im probably gone like stop at my 55th post (this is my 53rd)
honestly the only reason y i started was because my computer was buggin out one day and redirected me to this site when i was tryin to go to barnes and nobles website and i thought it was interesting...and the only reason why i kept going was because my friends thought it was kinda dope :)
when my friends started tellin me they liked it (i didnt even kno they were reading it) and were like randomly talkin about it during conversations....that made me happy :)
BTW...thanx to Marco, Nemo, Simpson, Willie, Marissa, Rell S., Dre, , Roy "idk how to keep my hands to myself" Daniels :), and Laramie for readin practically all my posts (even the dead ones lol) and to Paris, Dominique, Deja, Tim, Robin, Caisey, Jahy, Alejandro(Ally), Ribby, Walt, Rodrick, Shane, Naomi and everybody else who read a good amount of em
and to everybody else who read like one or two (too many names too list, majority of people who read my blog saw me post my url on like myspace or facebook or something and they read like a few of em)
now that i think about it i have alot more readers than i have followers...
well of course because none of my friends have a blogger but....
i'll prob come back every now and then and post something tho


Oh yeah b4 i go...i've read alot of blogs since i started my blogspot but it was only two that i think i actually read every post so...thanks to the following two and if u're reading this you should go read there blogs too...

Marissa- est94rissa.blogspot.com <---one of my bestfriends and one of the coolest blogs i've ever read...u can get alot of her personality by reading it...and she commented almost everyone of my posts lol ily MARISSA!!

Troy- theposterchildofla.blogspot.com <---(hope i got that right) I some how stumbled upon his blog one day and i've read every post since...good shit

P.S. this is soooo nasty but Maurice sent it to me in a email last night and it was so random so...
"How much dick could a bitch slut suck if a bitch slut could suck dick?"

MY RESPONSE: How am i 'pose to know!!!!

Alright then folks...i got school tomorrow so im out...


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I aint Ice Cube and today is not a good day

u ever have 1 one of those days when you're all like ahhh man, i wanna die???
I mean not on no suicidal shit or nothing lol but....
today i woke up and felt like shit
my throat was fuckin killin me...the big dumb ass scratch on my back is like painful as hell(long story as to how i got that)...i felt week as hell because i couldnt keep my blood sugar up at all this weekend and i couldnt find my meter or meds!!!
Then when I got up and went to the bathroom my scarf was off my head and now my hair looks like a bird nest...and we're all out of my favorite toothpaste (listerine) and i had to use some crest or colgate shit!!
Imma stop complainin tho and gone head write this paper on the Dead Poet Society which i fell asleep on in class i cant even remember 1 scene...DAMN!...where's Kevin G. when u need them encouragin words!?!? lol