my 55th post: the finale *sigh*

alright people, i been thinkin a long time about what my last post would be.
i figured i'd just talk about whatever comes to my mind
(sorry Rissa :(
This post isnt about anything specific....just whats on my mind

MY LIST OF THE BEST(in no specific order)
1.) To somehow meet everyone in the world. Until i experience everything I can about people and meet everyone i wont be satisfied. I'll have to get over that tho cause its impossible. I love seeing a new perspective.
2.)To sit everybody i've ever met down and tell them how i really feel/felt about them. I think that is really important to me.
3.) To bring back my Uncle B. Best person i ever met. They dont make em like him anymore :)
4.) For people to stop drawing conclusions about me. I dont reject anybody because i hate being rejected so dont be scared to talk to me. Dont think im phony because im not. Dont call me a tomboy or a girly girl because im not. STOP labeling me and judging me.
5.)To meet Kanye, Kid Cudi, and Ashton Kutcher. They are all so awesome and i would love to just chill with them for a day. Now that i think about it...this falls under #1. Did u know that Ashton has webbed toes? lol seriously he does
6.)To get a chance to be heard. To be important amongst a general crowd. Not on a highschool level. More like global. I mean, i dont wanna be famous....i just wanna do a hour long interview and have it broadcasted on every tv everywhere and somehow everybody actually watch it and like it...never gonna happen but excuse me for having dreams :D lol
7.)To become a best-selling author. Im going to have my first book written by age 16 and published by 18. You all better go buy it!!
8.)To have some type of super power.
9.)To drive around the whole USA. I love riding in the car more than anything. Nothing else compares. My first car is going to be a '57 Chevy flat-bed truck lol
10.)To be happy. I mean, genuinely happy. I dont think anybody is....yet.
11.) I swear i can never stop at 10 lol. To visit a prison and talk to inmates. Not as a counselor. More like as a friend coming to see a friend. Only difference is im visiting a total stranger. I wanna kno why their where their at now. I wanna help them become better people and get out. Be a friend. Like i said i dont discrimante what-so-ever.

Wow, when i reread this....i think i sound like a crazy person lmao. Im glad to know that on that list i dont see money anywhere tho....im genuinely unmaterialistic :)...i think
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MY FAVORITE POSTS I EVER WROTE
if this is your first time reading my blog and you dont want to read alllllllll my posts....u should read the following ones (my faves)
-Thanks Willie :). <------this post was about me and my bestfriend chillaxin and talkin bout my blog...it tells y i blog i guess
-things that ruffles my fethers lol <-----this post was about shit i dont like. Its long but its good...in my opinion.
Venus Vs. Mars. <----this post is about ME!!!!!!!! I dont know why i like it so much. Its just cool to me
-Homicidal Grandparents <-----idk, i just think its funny lol

i actually set back and read all my blogs, these were the ones that stood out to me
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ok well i've come to an end.
It was nice bloggin for you all/myself.
Hopefully u learned a thing or two about me
If i ever start blogging again it will be a while from now on a totally different blogger account....i doubt that i will tho
thanks to everybody who ever read my blog.
Have a nice life folks....and i mean that in the nicest most serious way possible....no sarcasm

u can catch me on myspace tho (myspace.com/dhwbenzo23)
or facebook (my name on there is Mercedes Hall) that site isnt nearly as borin as u think....dont believe the hype

p.s. STOP KILLING EACHOTHER!!! we wont need a 2012 apocalypse if we kill eachother before then!

Love,
Mercedes B.H. :)

my 54th blog: im tired

its 10:12 and im tired as fuck!
I still have to study gor three classes, take a shower, put some stuff on this girl ipod, and ironing me and my little brother's clothes

My mama had me waste about 2 hours makin carts on zumiez, Vans, circa, hot topic, and forever 21 webites and then she wouldnt even give me her credit card!!!
I dont understand people these days...keep makin me waste all my time maaaane!!!

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my 53rd post: People i am not dumb!!!

Ok so progress reports just got mailed home like this weekend or whatever
and i had all a's
almost everybody at school who asked me what were my grades were
like shocked as hell by my answer
Y r u so surprised???
Do u really think im dumb???
freshman year isnt even hard....this shit is majority review anyway
But i dont kno y these kids think just because im goofy SOMETIMES and i get
put out of class from time to time..or day to day(wow this really is not helpin my point lol i dont get put out that much tho)
and like crack jokes that im stupid
Before i got to this school i had straight a's almost
every report card since pre-k!!

Speakin of gettin kicked out....why the hell do these teachers keepin givin me the boot???
Mercedes is not a bad kid!!!
One teacher kicked me out for spelling "fuck"
another for tellin a girl there was a bug on her back
another for talkin too much/too loud.....twice
and i think thats it but thats enough!!!
Stop Kickin me out CPS staff!!! lol

on another note...
u remember that boy i was talkin bout in my "so wassup wit me n u" post
yea him
his name is Rob
so he texts me sayin "u woke"
me:yea
Rob:I got sumthin 2 ask u even tho i aint gone ask it
me:If u not gone ask then y would u bring it up
Rob:Cause i got tired of tryna ask u in the first place
Me:o...my bad then...i guess...???
Rob:I wanted to kno if u wanted to go to homecomin wit me and jus chill
Me: imma get back 2 u on that...but if i did go could i bring a friend....or friendzzz???
Rob: If they got money. 15 at the door
Me:Alright, imma get back at u
Rob:Like i said i aint goin cause imma be bowlin with the fam
Ok thats when i stopped textin
HOW IN THE HELL R U GONE ASK ME TO GO SOMEWHERE WITH U AND THEN TURN AROUND AND SAY "LIKE I ALREADY TOLD U I AINT GOIN CAUSE IMMA BE BOWLIN???
Why would u ask me then??
I was bout to go out of my way and get Rell S. and Naomi to go to this homecomin wit us...even tho u already asked me last WEEK and i said i couldnt go!!
That conversation blew me away in every way possible

52nd post

i thought these were funny yesterday





they're not really funny anymore tho lol o well

disclaimer....this is only my 51st post!!!

i kno on my last post i said that i was on my 53rd post but i was wrong
im on my 51st
the thingy was counting my drafts too...so when i deleted all my drafts the number went back down to how it was suppose to be
im still going to stop at my 55th post tho
it wouldnt kill me to write four more posts right??
So lets see....what am i going to talk about???
o ok, i kno
So i have this friend and we're gonna call her Kenya
she's just as sweet as pie
but....
she's so defenseless!!
I mean for instance, she had a bag of chips one day and these two beggers (i do not like beggers) kept asking her for her chips
she kept tryna tell them the bag was empty but they still were
like "no u're lying, gimme some chips, pleeeeeeeeaazzzz!!!"
so she turns the bag upside down to show them its empty
They immediately go from beggin mode to treatin mode
they started callin her dirty, and ghetto and sayin that they didnt want it anyway and that was probably the only food her poor ass ate in a week
im just like "???"
U're beggin her for her LAST and she's poor??
I wasnt there when it happened but this girl told me the story in full detail...
I kno sum people call me a pushover...
but i dont think i am...nobody "pushes me over"
it is true that im pretty nice at times to people at school but its not because someone is MAKING me do it...its just second nature to me
Like if i let a girl use one of my brand new lip glosses and they say that they like it usually i tell them they can have it...yea that last time i did that the lip gloss was six dollars but i didnt pay anything for it so what do i care (and no i didnt steal it lol)
im not a pushover for that...they didnt even ask for it...i just felt like giving to them...i feel like if you're nice to me why not be nice to you
and if you are honestly my friend i will do everything in my power to help u get what u want and if i have something u want and it doesnt hold much signifigance(sp) to me then why not give it to u...i dont even like lip gloss that much
Imma CHERRY CARMAX GIRL lol
its not a loss to me so whatever...im not passin out fuckin kidneys and if i do like u, i can guarentee you're not gettin shit from me
Im not that materialistic at all tho...my parents are...so when they buy me something i dont want why not give it to a friend who does??
I would like to think my friends would do the same for me
Or say if someone comes up to me and a group of friends and ask for a dollar everybody will say no but i'll call that person back over there and give them a dollar..
thats not being a pushover to me cause it was strictly by my choice..
i just like doin shit for people sometimes
and its not like people dont do nice things for me almost everyday
Nobody at school or in the streets really ever fucks with me so i have no reason to put up a defense
if someone comes at me foul i kno how to handle myself
imma have to talk with "Kenya" tho because i dont like the way she's lettin people treat her
She doesnt deserve that shit

...i mean im jus sayin

Jammin out to places to go by fiddy (50 cent)

I dont know why i named this blog that...my little bro has been singin that old ass song so its stuck in my head now
but....on to the point
You kno what im kinda tired of doing??
blogging
i've been doin it for like half a year now (or something like that) and i think im done...
im probably gone like stop at my 55th post (this is my 53rd)
honestly the only reason y i started was because my computer was buggin out one day and redirected me to this site when i was tryin to go to barnes and nobles website and i thought it was interesting...and the only reason why i kept going was because my friends thought it was kinda dope :)
when my friends started tellin me they liked it (i didnt even kno they were reading it) and were like randomly talkin about it during conversations....that made me happy :)
BTW...thanx to Marco, Nemo, Simpson, Willie, Marissa, Rell S., Dre, , Roy "idk how to keep my hands to myself" Daniels :), and Laramie for readin practically all my posts (even the dead ones lol) and to Paris, Dominique, Deja, Tim, Robin, Caisey, Jahy, Alejandro(Ally), Ribby, Walt, Rodrick, Shane, Naomi and everybody else who read a good amount of em
and to everybody else who read like one or two (too many names too list, majority of people who read my blog saw me post my url on like myspace or facebook or something and they read like a few of em)
now that i think about it i have alot more readers than i have followers...
well of course because none of my friends have a blogger but....
i'll prob come back every now and then and post something tho


Oh yeah b4 i go...i've read alot of blogs since i started my blogspot but it was only two that i think i actually read every post so...thanks to the following two and if u're reading this you should go read there blogs too...

Marissa- est94rissa.blogspot.com <---one of my bestfriends and one of the coolest blogs i've ever read...u can get alot of her personality by reading it...and she commented almost everyone of my posts lol ily MARISSA!!

Troy- theposterchildofla.blogspot.com <---(hope i got that right) I some how stumbled upon his blog one day and i've read every post since...good shit

P.S. this is soooo nasty but Maurice sent it to me in a email last night and it was so random so...
"How much dick could a bitch slut suck if a bitch slut could suck dick?"

MY RESPONSE: How am i 'pose to know!!!!

Alright then folks...i got school tomorrow so im out...


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I aint Ice Cube and today is not a good day

u ever have 1 one of those days when you're all like ahhh man, i wanna die???
I mean not on no suicidal shit or nothing lol but....
today i woke up and felt like shit
my throat was fuckin killin me...the big dumb ass scratch on my back is like painful as hell(long story as to how i got that)...i felt week as hell because i couldnt keep my blood sugar up at all this weekend and i couldnt find my meter or meds!!!
Then when I got up and went to the bathroom my scarf was off my head and now my hair looks like a bird nest...and we're all out of my favorite toothpaste (listerine) and i had to use some crest or colgate shit!!
Imma stop complainin tho and gone head write this paper on the Dead Poet Society which i fell asleep on in class i cant even remember 1 scene...DAMN!...where's Kevin G. when u need them encouragin words!?!? lol

Me and Rissa!! and other people

me and marissa at lunch....she looks so adorable and me...well im not the most photogenic lol


Me and half marissa before pep rally...i look weird in this pic but who cares...lol my leg posture looks weird too...and if u cant tell she's on my back



Nettie at lunch...this pic is really pretty



Dalia pluckin her eyebrows right after she ruined mine lol jk....she did mess em up tho



Aren't all my besties so pretty??

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alright then

ok i guess im going to have Marcelius redo his
post because he clearly misundertood me lol
when i told him to right a blog for me he took it as right
a blog "as" me
when he saved it and called me to read he was like "Cedes do u like it!!!!"
and he looked so happy...i just didnt have the heart to tell him
u fucked the shit alll up lol
imma have him do another one "as marcelius" tomrrow i guess

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the most boring day ever

this day was the most boring day ever becouse the only thing that i
could do is watch tv becouse i couldn't go any where becuse my parets
had to work and no one was able to take me any where so all that i was
able to do at home besides watch tv was play with my little brother
and get on the conputer
boo hoo

Yall illy im iller, im from illinois

OK it is Satursday (i dont kno the date, dont keep up with that stuff on weekends)
and im reeeeally bored!
This has to be the boredest (me makin uo words) I can remember being at home
(school is alot more borin on certain days and in certain classes)
I cant type what all i want to cause my little brother is sittin on my
lap reading everything i type so.....
I heard homecomin was fun...i didnt go tho...maybe next year
what else....my parents started Christms shoppin all ready
i guess i have nothing else to say of relevance to say
i think imma let Marcelius (my 8 year old bro) do a post now....
he's probably gone have hella grammer errors lol
he's bored too tho so why not....
i guess when we;re done it'll be Mario Kart time
we're tryna win the Mushroom Cup lol
alright folks

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10.9.09

well it is the morning of 10.9.09
im removing nail polish from my fingers
i um...its rockstar day
i always thought the whole rockstar thing was lame so...
im wearin a cobra starship (one of my fave rock bands)tee,
yellowish goldish skinnies, white Ed Hardy watch (kinda rockish i guess), and Coach shoes (i kno its not rockish but i never wore em b4 so....)
but anyways backin up to yesterday...
i thought it was gone be my favorite day of this week and it sooooo was not
it was actually the worse...i mean even tho we had the pep or prep or whatever u call it rally i still wasnt really feelin it
the panther mascot had me lughin so hard (i think that was Ejaaz)
and when Chris came out with the Varsity football team of course we had to rep
how often do u see a freshie on varsity???
That morning i get kicked out of Math for spelling a curse word
I had to fuckin sit on the floor in the hallway doin nuthin lookin like a bum...
head laid back on the locker....
starin up at the ceilingg....
so i got up and went in another classroom...everybody in there
was doin their work so i found kno further entertainment
we started walkin to science 3rd period and one of my best friends
got really sad. My emotions are greatly influenced by the ones around me so when she was sad i got even more sad than i was prior to that
Then in science ms LAMA!!!!! was chewin my ass about talkin when i wasnt even talkin...she has it out for me man....she even told me one time she wouldnt teach me anymore...crazy.....lol and she tried to each my watch
i think thats it tho....aw naw and thanks to my bud Kevin G.!!!
I was like even sadder (if that was posssible) after Ms. Lama said some shit to me
and he saw me lookin super depressed and came with encouraging words and a hug...

I think thats all i have to say tho....i could go on but im practicing makin these things shorter (which was not a success this time) so....have a good day folks

Side Note: Larry's dance crew killllllllled.....Alex didnt even perform!!!! haha she was sweaty as hell when she got off stage and all she did was stand on the side haha!!
Laugh my ass oooooofffff.....damn!

throw yo hands in the air if u's a true playeeeeeeeer

i meant to say on my last post that i was at my 45th post.... so i guess this makes 46th then, huh??



haha look at my nose....its so weird lol....i think i have THE strangest nose ever...i like it tho....atleast i dont have my "father's" big fat flat nose lol mines is like a clown nose...old people love to grab it lmao....young people love to poke it and say "aw your nose is sooo kay-uuuuuute"....i love to say Get back mutha fuckaaaaaaaa...YOU DONT KNO ME LIKE THAT lol....jus kidding....but i do be like "ok thats enough"...alright man im done talkin bout my nose

for the first time in a while i have nothing else to say.... :)

So wassup with me n u???

Most bullshit line ever!!
Im textin this boy right now as i type and
he sent me "why u dont answer yo phone?"
Now if u kno me u kno that i rarely answer
my phone...i'll text anybody anytime...
i'll IM or get on myspace and talk to anybody anytime...
I'll get on iChat or skype with anybody anytime...
but i just dont answer my phone
If i wanna talk I'll call u
or if u wanna talk text me and say that or leave a voicemail...
Reason y i dont usually answer my phone is because i
be around too many people or i dont be around my phone....
but it depends tho, i do answer for certain people...
im gettin off topic tho
so i reply wit "My bad...i gotchu tonight...promise"
I said that cause he keep askin me to pick up or call back everyday but
i never do lol i forget alot
so we go on textin or whatever and he send
"so r u single"
ME: Single as a dollar bill....not for long tho....im talkin to somebody
HIM:So wassup wit me and u?
???
Didnt i just say i wont be single for long and im talkin 2 somebody??
In all honestly i dont plan on goin wit nobody no time soon be like he gotta kno that...he doesnt read my blog so he'll never find out
Plus that tired line "wassup wit u and me?"
Nothing's up but yo 2 inch wang!!!
lol JUS KIDDING!!
But seriously tho i had to send back
"Really??...i dont even kno your name" lol
I really dont tho...he's saved in my phone as SHORT LIGHTSKIN DUDE FROM URBAN PREP lol dead serious...thats wha i do when i get a # and no name

Warren (once again dont read if u dont like my long posts)

B4 u start readin this read the one right b4 this one...otherwise u wont understand

ok.. i just wrote a long ass post about sports camp
(and me and my "attractions" lol)
and i just had to blog about Warren ass
Ok so like i said i was 10 back then
Warren was bout 16
So besides the football incident i swear Warren tried to kill me atleast 5 other times
and i mean that as literal as possible...but this one time really stuck out

We were swimming and i was at the shallow end gettin "swimmin lessons" (lol) from Tay
So Warren yells to me "Ay Mercedes come swim wit me" from the deep end
and i was like i cant swim
so he was like bring yo ass over here
so I went off and shit and Tay was like get the fuck out the pool
so we go back to doin what we were doin
...like 10 minutes later Tay left to go change back into his clothes
so i start walkin to the other side of the shallow end where my brother
was at (my real brother....yes he was there 2)
and he kept fuckin movin away from me
so i reached out to grab his arm and all of a sudden
I go under the water....im practically on the deep end
now and i cant get up!!
Somebody had grabbed my waist and pushed me all the way down to the
bottom of the pool!
I started panicing and inhaling the water and shit
so i was literally drowning!
So after a while they let me up and i got up so fast that i hit my head on
the gutter thing on the side of the pool and cut my forehead and it was bleedin like crazy
So im still recoverin from damn near drownin and now my head is finna fuckin explode from all the pain of that gash i had just gave myself
Of course i was cryin...
Once again Dre came to the rescue :)
He pulled me out the pool and carried me to the self serving nurse office
(its basically like a nurse office but no nurse, u use the supplies and fix up yourself)
and he cleaned up my forehead and put a gauze pad on it....
he finally got it 2 stop bleedin and he sat on the couch thingy with me til i stopped cryin...
which was about 30 mins lol
He told me how people can be assholes and how i shouldnt let em get to me and good shit like that
He said Warren was a special case tho and he would handle him for me and indeed he did
That was the last time Warren ever said anything to me
I dont think I've ever had a friend as good as Dre...EVER
Not b4 or after i met him
He's prob like 20 now but if i ever saw him again we'd prob be just as close as we were then
I heard he moved to Cali tho....that shit sucks :(

If u dont like my long posts dont open, if u do....open it

i am very much so a type of person that looks back
on old shit...i really hold on to the past
rather its good or bad...
but this was good
i remember like a good minute ago i had went to sports camp
and i mean it was cool as hell...
It was for ages 10-16 and i was 10 :)
How precious, right? lol
So but um...the counselors or whatever u wanna call them were between the
ages of 17 and 23
My counselors name was Tay (short for Antavius) and Johnny Bravo(forgot his real name)
Tay was 18 and Johnny Bravo was prob 19
I swear even tho i was 10 we use to cake it soooooo hard lol
I mean Tay even gave me his # at the end of the summer and was like "call me anytime"
i was like "o-o-okay" studderin and shit lol we was like 8 years apart lol WTF??
and Johnny Bravo use to make sure i ate b4 eeeeeeverybody
...pickin me up and huggin me all randomly and shit
...oh yeah and i cant forget about Dre (he was 16)
he was more like a big brother tho....i remember when we were playin football
(yes me a little 10 year old was playin tackle football wit 10-16 year old dudes)
I was a little ol' sumthin but i had hella skills on defense
...so but anyways...i was playin WR position and this boy name Warren threw the ball
to this boy name Melvin
..i intercepted it :)
Warren got mad and tackled the shit outta me!!!
My nose started bleedin like a mutha fucka...yep...he had broke it
so half the people was fightin wit Warren and the otha half was helpin me.
...Dre came and picked me up and carried me inside the building
...i was cryin like a little bitch lol
and he kept sayin "u're alright, i gotchu, I gotchu" and gave me a kiss on the cheek and the forehead....how sweet...i miss Dre...like seriously
Oh yeah, and Stacy too!!! It was this boy name Stacy and he was like 15 or 16
and he use to flirt wit me sooooo much
Everyday he came and sit his big 16 year old ass on my 10 year old lap and ask
me "how old r u, really??"
and i would be like "i told u ten!!!"
and he would be like "STOP LYIN!! U NOT TEN" lol
that boy was hilarious...well i did look older tho
i was wishin so bad i wasnt 10 cause he was the cutest thing lol
but for some reason i always liked older boys...
i liked Noel and he's like 5 years older than me (we almost went together 2 :)
i liked Kendrid and he was 2 years older than me
i liked Michael Williams 2 years ago....he's prob 66...i kno u thinkin like "WTF" lol
i liked Earl Wondick last year and he was prob 65 or 66 lol...that nigga liked me too tho...he use to see me and be like "MERCEDES!!! ME NUBIAN BEAUTY!!" lmaoooooo
me and Dalia use to think that shit was wierd as hell
Plus he the one that answered allllll, i mean all, my sex questions that i didnt have answers to
he gave me that look like "practice is better than preaching" LMAOOOOO my nigga
But anyways I miss all of them
Dre, my bro....Stacy, my stalker....Johnny Bravo, my perverted counselor/cuddy buddy (lol), and Tay, my best friend/counselor/coulda-shoulda-woulda been husband lol JUST KIDDING

Spirit Week

Spirit Week at Dusable Highschool/ Bronzeville Scholastic Institute/ DHW Prep School Of Medicine(my school)

Monday- Jerk/Nerd/Mix Match Day
Tuesday- Old School Day
Wednesday- MJ Tribute Day (i think this day is dumb as fuck)
Thursday- Spirit Day(where school colors:Red, Black, White)
Friday- Rockstarday (im not a fuckin rockstar and we have this day EVERY year)

I guess i gotta go shoppin....only day im lookin forward to is Tuesday tho....which is kinda the same as Monday cause imma go for a 80's theme. Like some shit you'll see in the first House Party or Class Act or sumthin....idk

La Di Da

My On Top Of Everything-All Time-Big Dick Swinging-Fave Rappers Are:
Tupac
Kanye
Cudi

My Fave Rappers Are:
Jay-Z
Nas
Eminem
Cool Kids
Drake
Big Sean
Pac Div

Honorable Mention:
T.I.- use to be a fave back when he put out the King album
Luda- use to be a fave back when he put out Red Light District and Release Therapy
Cory Gunzs- use to be a fave back when he put out the first Best Kept Secret mixtape


Side Note: The bottom two lists change alot but the three folks on the first list never left since i first heard em. :)

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

I feel like cryin right now man!!!
Kanye and Gaga tour is cancelled and it aint even
started yet!!!
Me and a load of folks who birthdays are in January were alllllll goin to the concert when they come to Chicago on Jan. 16
I mean i was gone spend however much money necessary to get the best seat....

I guess its for the best tho
Im not the biggest Gaga fan plus Kanye hasnt even put out recent music for him to be touring...

Yo....imma let yall finish readin but....Kanye had one of the best tours of all time!!! lol

Anyways...i just had to that
Kanye is my nigga man and i been wanted to see him in concert!!!
I hope when/if he reschedule he go on tour with the whole GOOD Music fam instead of Lady Gaga....no offense to her she's decent...plus she's really been on her grind lately

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-sigh-

Didnt go to school today for reasons i rather not say
...home alone
...watchin some Chris Rock movie on BET
...poppin Tylenol athritis like its skittles (my knee hurts)
Get at me yall, im so bored i'd I'd make a death threat to obama just for a form of entertainment lol
...naw but really i did just arrange all my daddy's alcohol in the mini wine cellar thing in alphabetical order lol
...now im bout to go look at old as pictures....
heres me....being bored as fuck
how many times did i say bored in this one post???



That was made out of pure boredom